One down; ten to go!

Well, since I chose to put myself "out there," I have to spend the time and acknowledge the denial letter I received.  No one likes to admit failure, and I am no exception to that.  It was during this process of attempting Law School that I discovered I had never failed at anything professionally before.  I became very nervous about what I was doing in applying to schools.  I have no idea what these schools are looking for in an applicant!  I'm totally outside my comfort zone now.  


So, the disappointment in myself for receiving my first rejection letter last night really hit hard.  I think the worst part was that it was a school I really thought would accept me based on their need to prove themselves as a Law School.  So, denial one out of eleven possibilities.  Thank God that Ken was amazingly supportive of me.  


Honestly, I think that was what hurt the most - feeling that I had let Ken down.  He spent the last few months telling anyone that would listen that I would be able to write my own ticket, and that he knew I was going to get accepted anywhere.  Feeling that I let him down really made this first denial letter hit hard.


Thankfully, Ken finds me amazing no matter what, and he consoled me and helped me to piece my ego back together quickly.  I'm a firm believer that "everything happens for a reason", albeit, sometimes I would REALLY prefer a note that it's OK for now and a small hint of the plan.  In the long run, I have to continue with my current job and life and see what happens.  C'est la vie has to be more than just a saying right now - it has to be my mantra from now until I hear back from the next ten schools.  


I'm lucky that I actually have a job - so many do not and especially in my area.  I have a home and a husband who (seriously) thinks that it cannot get any more perfect than it is with me.  

New supper and FAFSA

Last night, Ken tried a new recipe.  He is King of the Grill, so he got stuck with it, but it looked really good on paper:  a whole chicken with ricotta and Parmesan cheese between the skin and meat and seasoned with Tarragon and Basil. Sounds good, right?  Well, poor Ken slaved away and we sat down to the table. 

Well, it smelled great, but we were so disappointed with the taste.  It wasn't that it was bland - I could handle that.  It just wasn't "right."  Ken and I both kept saying that there was something missing, but neither of us could come up with a solution to it.  Again, this wasn't a bad meal or gross, but it wasn't really good either.  It's definitely not something we'll be making again.  And, by "we," I mean "Ken."  HeeHee


On a really funny note, I filled out the FASFA today.  That is the application for Federal Student Aid.  Ken and I are really trying to figure out the options so we can realistically look at Law School, but this was the first step - asking for the money!  However, in the application process, this question was asked on the form, "Do you (and your spouse) currently have $36,500 in savings/checking accounts?"


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!  Only the Federal Government would ask such a STUPID question when there is still a Depression -  okay-okay, no one wants to use the "D" word - "Recession" going on for 3 consecutive years.  


I have to say, for a Monday especially, I laughed so hard and for so long at this question, that I had to share it on FB.  It was a simple "yes" or "no" answer, but I really wish there would have been alternate choices as answers.  "Are you kidding me?" would have been a good one along with "Fuck no!"  Unfortunately, those were not options, and I had to simply reply, "no" Ken and I do not have $36,500 sitting in the bank right now.  
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Yep!  Still laughing!!!